today was fun. it was raining for most of the time, but it was fun.

the running around took me away from the expectations that surround me, even if for a little while.

i guess i knew i was stressed somewhat, but i threw it all into busying myself; tiring myself out.

at the end of the day, i decided to walk home. i thought the weather was perfect for taking in.

instead, the moment the van drove off, i started tearing. it got so bad i almost crouched at a corner in the HDB block next to the school to calm my nerves...but well, i just kept walking.

and i thought the rain would soothe my pain.

i don't know how the hell i could put up such a brave face in front of those guys.

i'm hurting so much inside right now and they don't have a clue.

nobody has a clue.